While I love being a GM, I rather suspect that I am crap at playing roleplaying games with a player character. As is typical of humans, I hate to see the kinds of things I do at the table when I am the GM. While there’s probably nothing terribly surprising in the kinds of stuff I dislike players doing, all of them are behaviours I’ve exhibited recently.
Here’s a quick list off the top of my head:
- Reluctant to play – might show up, might not
- Don’t read the rules
- Don’t read the world notes
- Last to make a character
- Take whatever character is easiest to make, then whine about the build
- Complain about rules you don’t like during the game
- Point out the flaws in the adventure during the game
- Allow personal interruptions and disappear for minutes at a time
These behaviours make me feel ashamed, which in turn makes me less likely to want to play at another GM’s table. My self-consciousness is palpable, and I simply end up talking myself out of being in the group. I am quite convinced that I am the worst kind of player.
The question, of course, is why I will read the rules, create a world and write it up, make characters for games I am running or planning to run, generally roll with the rules of a game in-session, cover for the flaws in my adventures, and do my best to bat away interruptions when I am GMing?
Why are we such inconsistent beings? I would never put up with me at my own table.